I found work with a temp agency. The upside: decent pay. The downside: I worked only two days last week and won't work again until next week. I got cut from a crew because I different company brought in workers.
I'm at least not near flat broke. My family bought my Nintendo Wii from me. I have money for food and gas. I get a small paycheck friday and soon some income will come in from half.com.
God continues to provide. It's hard sometimes, but life is still good. I especially could see that this weekend spending time with friends. It was a good birthday weekend. I don't think I could have asked for a better birthday.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Where It Stands
I continue to have crazy dreams. I'm still looking for a job. I need more community.
That's the nutshell version of my current life. Here's a bit more detailed version:
I got out quite a bit this past weekend and hung out with friends. It was good times. I'm broke to the point where I can barely buy myself food and was blessed enough to be able to work something out with the man who owns the house I'm living in so that I can do labor around the house to pay for rent. So that's a plus. How God will provide everything continues to be a mystery to me but I know that he will. I'm getting some more income soon because my family has willingly bought my Nintendo Wii from me in order to help me out in my current situation.
I find myself needing to live with other people who believe what I do. I continuously remember what I friend asked me before I moved here. She said, "Are they Christians? Because that's important when you're finding a roommate. It's the same when finding the person you marry." So I need a change. It's been good here and God has been teaching me to grow in different ways but I definitely need a lot more community.
I helped on a film project acting as a drunk guy who hits on a woman in a dilusion sequence. Fun times and met some nice people.
I've also recently discovered how many people that know me have been praying for me and knowing that in itself has been a great blessing. What saddens me, though, is how few of those people are living here in LA. It makes it hard to not ask questions like "Where is the love here?" when it feels as if it is all coming from the outside.
Sometimes we make small sacrifices to do the things we love. Sometimes we make large sacrifices. And sometimes we make even larger sacrifices to chase the things that we feel God wants us to do. But in the end, it's all worth it, because God has a plan and His plans are always good.
That's the nutshell version of my current life. Here's a bit more detailed version:
I got out quite a bit this past weekend and hung out with friends. It was good times. I'm broke to the point where I can barely buy myself food and was blessed enough to be able to work something out with the man who owns the house I'm living in so that I can do labor around the house to pay for rent. So that's a plus. How God will provide everything continues to be a mystery to me but I know that he will. I'm getting some more income soon because my family has willingly bought my Nintendo Wii from me in order to help me out in my current situation.
I find myself needing to live with other people who believe what I do. I continuously remember what I friend asked me before I moved here. She said, "Are they Christians? Because that's important when you're finding a roommate. It's the same when finding the person you marry." So I need a change. It's been good here and God has been teaching me to grow in different ways but I definitely need a lot more community.
I helped on a film project acting as a drunk guy who hits on a woman in a dilusion sequence. Fun times and met some nice people.
I've also recently discovered how many people that know me have been praying for me and knowing that in itself has been a great blessing. What saddens me, though, is how few of those people are living here in LA. It makes it hard to not ask questions like "Where is the love here?" when it feels as if it is all coming from the outside.
Sometimes we make small sacrifices to do the things we love. Sometimes we make large sacrifices. And sometimes we make even larger sacrifices to chase the things that we feel God wants us to do. But in the end, it's all worth it, because God has a plan and His plans are always good.
Monday, July 6, 2009
Another day ... another dollar ... or not.
July 6. I've been here a month. Still no job. Another month will mean another rent. I need a job. I need an income. I've been searching hard. Nothing has come about. Pray that God provides.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
Solitude
Heavy sinking, the ball drops to the floor.
The ocean rocking, the sea shell reaches the shore.
The feeling arches, despair taking control.
In this moment, hope releases all hold.
The memories ache, the world spins,
Where do I go when there are no more wins?
In a sinking feeling with the shadows,
There I do remain.
These fearsome beasts with their icy hold,
Grasp my limbs and force me to the fold.
From the bottom I wait for it to come,
Hope to surface in the rising sun.
The world awaits my soon return and rise,
Tracing yet another line in which it cries.
But there is no return from this dark presence,
When the world is void of all but one.
What happens when they all have said goodbye.
The ocean rocking, the sea shell reaches the shore.
The feeling arches, despair taking control.
In this moment, hope releases all hold.
The memories ache, the world spins,
Where do I go when there are no more wins?
In a sinking feeling with the shadows,
There I do remain.
These fearsome beasts with their icy hold,
Grasp my limbs and force me to the fold.
From the bottom I wait for it to come,
Hope to surface in the rising sun.
The world awaits my soon return and rise,
Tracing yet another line in which it cries.
But there is no return from this dark presence,
When the world is void of all but one.
What happens when they all have said goodbye.
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